Back for an update.

Hi all.

I eventually stopped smoking for 10 months, then the summer of 2010 I was back on the cigs again! But there is light... So to speak...

On Tuesday 21st February 2012, I quit for good. I am now 14 weeks smoke free and didn't have a single one. I miss them like hell but I refuse to give in to them.

Gained a ton of weight (so to speak) after I moved house last summer and now weigh (as of Wednesday 16th May 2012) 13st 13lb. Back at weight watchers last week and I reckon I've lost about 2 1/2lb. We'll find out on Wednesday.

Just updating

Night x

Day 10

I didn’t post yesterday because I was too busy stitching!

 

Anyway… another smoke free day… did have a lot of mints though… not good I know but they kept the cravings away.  Today I have the docs at 3:50pm to make sure I’m doing everything else right!!!

 

Short and sweet today… nothing major to report.

Day 9 and WOO HOO!

Spent this morning productively... after doing the chores I sat and sorted the the new 30 skeins of DMC that arrived yesterday and I only have 15 doubles from it... so not bad.

I feel really good today! I really don't have anything to report TBH because I feel great! I still get the odd craving and I'm still having mad, mental dreams but I know it'll all pass.

Short but sweet today.

I have a docs appointment on Tuesday to see if I can referred to a quit nurse... I want to make sure I'm doing things right!

Day 8 : On to week 2 now.

Well, I would have updated earlier… if I wasn’t in the pub today.  I survived!!!!  I survived the pub without smoking!  I bought the nicotine mint lozenges so I wasn’t chewing gum and trying to find somewhere to dispose of it.  There were two different strengths though… 4mg and 2 mg… I stuck with the 2mg to play it safe because of the patches and I’ve had a few from the pack (you get 36 in the pack) but they are only going to be used when I go out with friends or on a shopping trip… which is rare so they’ll be on reserve.

 

I couldn’t believe how easy it was to be able have fun and not smoke or annoy anyone! It felt great!  None of my friends smoke so it was so great not missing any of the conversation because I was out having a cig!  A friend of mine brought her boyfriend with her today, whom I’d never met before, and he smokes but he seems to have held off as much as possible while I was there… he was either being considerate or not a heavy smoker.

 

Also… I never really noticed before today when we were leaving the pub how much smoking is everywhere!  I couldn’t believe it but my friend (who quit 5 years ago) said she noticed too when she stopped!  It’s amazing!  I’m glad I’ve stopped now… I have a smidgen more confidence about me because I never noticed before how much I ponged when I smoked… now I don’t… I feel clearer too! :-)

 

Here’s to the rest of my life!!!!

Day 7

WOW! I feel so much better today than I did yesterday! I was so depressed and down in the dumps that I thought I’d be in my bed all day today for sure! But no… I got up this morning.

I did however awaken at about 2am with another F’d up dream… went back to sleep and had another dream but don’t remember that one. Don’t know how long I can keep doing this for… but I’ll just have plod on.. it’ll be worth it in the end… I know it will :)

So today I’m back on top of things… my oven even got fixed today! I’m stitching again whereas yesterday the thought of it made me feel worse!

Just think, after tonight I will have been a non-smoker for one whole week! WOO-HOO!

Day 6

11:50am

Very broken sleep with some very weird dreams last night. I was expecting the dreams sooner… wonder how many more nights of that to expect.

I’m supposed to be going to the beach this Saturday but apparently the weather for that day isn’t promising so it’s been re-arranged for the pub instead. Don’t think I’ll be consuming alcohol, would be to tempting to go and get cigs. Not ready for drinking yet I think.

I’m feeling much better today… just… well, my soft drinks taste flat even though they’re freshly opened from the fridge… might switch to water.

16:59

Feel in a bt of a lull right now... not sure what to do with myself. At about 13:45 I went for a half hour nap that lasted TWO hours... so I'm not long back up out of bed. I feel like there is something missing in my life and right now, I think I need a replacement to prevent me going back to the missing object... gawd.. I hope you know what I mean. xx

19:19

Can I go back to bed? I'm feeling really tired.

Not to mention I have put on 4LBs in just this week! Not good, NOT GOOD! I'm really angry with myself for falling in to that trap! I'm almost back at 12st now and feel miserable >.<

Day 5

15:09

I had a nice evening last night and went to my bed early. There was a point though were I got so fed up that I made a mistake in my stitching… so that annoyed me and I’ll be picking that up again shortly. My hands even got ‘itchy’ with needing to something to do and before I went to bed I got restless… then when I knew it was bedtime.

I feel so much better today! I went out again to shops and someone blew smoke in my direction… I was actually disgusted! SO I coughed as loud as I could… purposely! Lol I think I got the message across J

It’s amazing how much more time you have when you don’t have a cigarette to waste those 5 minutes that could be spent doing something else. All those 5 minutes add up! SO you get more time to get stuff done or finish those little projects or odd jobs! And the good thing is… if I ever go back out to work… no ciggy breaks so more work in the day gets done! I feel really good now! Lol, I was in Somerfield this morning buying a couple of things for lunch and I said to myself… “Right, off to the fag counter to NOT buy any fags”… hee hee,.. it feels good not even looking at them anymore.

17:43

Nik is doing so much better today! I'm very proud of him! He had to call Nathan's school this evening and needed a cig after but I took his mind off it and he's fine :) He'll very soon be starting to feel the benefits!

I'm not long out of a shower and my patch was starting to come off. I had to put 6 plasters on it this morning because everytime I stretched my arm to reach for something it was coming undone. So I now have another four plasters on top of that because of my shower... lol... I look like a stabbing victim! pmsl.

Anyway, I'm hungry, off to see what's for my dinner... toodle - loo